So
Why Now?
It has been over four years since the Dr. informed me that indeed the spot on
my Liver was Cancer, not some innocuous fatty tissue or bruise but Stage 4
Metastatic Adenocarcinoma. Of course now
my experiences have taught me what that really means while at the time I had no
idea, really not a clue. I thought there were ten stages so 4 was under the 50%
mark, people beat cancer all the time it would be dealt with that's that. Over
four years later it's time to share what my experiences, my hope is that others
can gain insight. My friends can see what state of mind, health and body that I
am in. So many people just have a hard time communicating with that eight
hundred pound gorilla sitting in the room. Therapeutically my explanation to
what it is like to live under what can feel like impending doom. (I smiled big
when I wrote that).
This is the rub only 5% of
all Liver Cancer patients make it past 5 years, the way I feel now is that 5
years is going to come and go with me still here. The multiple treatments,
surgeries & medications have all done their job, not perfectly but enough
to extend my life, allowing the Dr’s to treat my condition like a chronic
disease rather than a fatal one. I have learned how deadly Cancer is, seeing
others succumb within months. This is just reality, this is very important for
any sick person to know the reality of the situation they face. When you learn
what is possible you can mentally prepare for what’s coming.
Right after I was
diagnosed Patrick Swayze announced that he had Pancreatic Cancer, my ignorance
at the time led to some dark thoughts about his reality. My initial emotional response
was frustrating, here was a guy who not only had unlimited resources but great
Dr's will seek him out to try saving him, I would be seeking out Dr's who
would just get me a Pet Scan (my first Dr told me it was unnecessary
treatment). So pissed off at Patrick Swayze for him getting Cancer Care that I
couldn't yet not even understanding how deadly his disease was. When he died I
wept like a baby, if he could not beat it how can I?
Four years and several months later,
my luck is holding. I feel good more days than not, my spirit is strong while
whatever treatment is presented will be pursued. My family is close by, too
much distance between myself and many people that are dear to me, this has to
change. This Blog is going to help with that, Patrick may be keeping baby out
of corners, while making sure Demi is getting through her crisis but I owe him.
His terrible tragedy taught me that it is not the money or the access to Dr’s,
it is a mix of luck chasing down the right care while staying positive that you
will keep pushing every day.
Thanks for reading this I
hope that you get something good from this one day, I will try to keep it
interesting so stick with me.
Scott VS Liver Cancer
